Worauf Wartest Du?

Worauf wartest du?

-Kummerspeck

[For Mayonnaise, my school newsletter, as a response to certain people trying to take away my place in an exchange, by spreading false rumors about me and using those to get me disqualified. Originally, anonymous. Now, I doubt they or I care.]

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i never much thought about albert einstein, i must confess — 

not since i watched him with murphy in oppenheimer, i think we liked each other then.

now, i am glad i got it.

not really. 

not in the moment. but see:
it’s a land full of things i read about and history there echoes

 in every wind, every breath and the thing is 

all of them dont understand. its all about 

streuselkuchen and pictures that should be uploaded

on pinterest. 

and

i spent hours of my childhood with bob and john 

hunting for him. if i close my eyes just enough i can 

see liesel and max reuniting 

with an embrace holding

 all the tenderness that the ‘sechsundzwanzig lack.

 to be completely honest 

two of them wiped my tears

 that one night and their kindness cut 

through the pain 

and my fascination dulled. 

the thing is

i spent hours of my childhood enchanted by 

the history but in those few minutes

 near midnight 

the only thing i associate 

with them now is friendship. 

much less than what i can say

 for those whispers of

 ‘better the devil you know.’

and also

█████ like those bendy scales,

 ██████ like the warning on bottles of poisons and

 ███ like the chairs. 

complain and wail 

and cry and warn

 and try, try, try. i urge you.

 if you are this passionate, do not give up.

 i understand.

 i do.

 but remember 

passion does not always equal success

 and sometimes

 desperation shows poor sportsmanship. 

it is the one trait i know 

most lack 

and a piece of a advice; 

hide that lack if you can. 

listen —

i never much thought 

about albert einstein, i confess —  though since

 i found out about your opinions, 

he is on my mind. 

in der mitte von schwierigkeiten liegen die möglichkeiten.

 i complied 

ever since.

 i can not say the same may be possible for you. 

sorry, if i am too rude —

it’s only that

I think Albert Einstein is on my side and so, worauf wartest du?

[Translations:

Worauf wartest du? - what are you waiting for?

Kummerspeck - for the excess weight gained from emotional overeating, such as due to stress.

Streuselkuchen - A german dish

Sechsundzwanzig - twenty-six

in der mitte von schwierigkeiten liegen die möglichkeiten - In the midst of difficulties lie the opportunities. ]